My life a number of years ago was London, and I spent most of my money and time going out, socialising, partying and chasing fun and excitement. I hardly ever watched TV. I used to go clubbing a lot, I loved dancing and often ended up at hip-hop, drum'n'bass, latin, blues, funk, and reggae nights. I was never a big fan of house, trance or techno. The whole social scene has changed though and I believe the era of clubbing is dead. Is it the lack of quality music to dance to? Are we just tired of the often obscene prices of going clubbing? Or is it just because my peer group and I are getting old (we've reached 30) and tired of it all? Big clubs were closing down well before the credit crunch era and people switched to going to bars instead. Now people are just staying in.
I felt that I was getting London fatigue, and so were my friends, so I decided to leave the country to do some travelling. Thinking of Samuel Johnson, I didn't want to feel tired of life. So I quit everything then upped and left by myself. It was a great experience. I was away for a year and a half but my travels were painfully cut short because of my mother's health so I had to return.
My mother is heartbreakingly slipping further away each day. I've moved back in with my parents to help out and give support. As a result, I've not gone looking for work and have hardly been out or seen my friends. I've been in this stasis for many months now and between grief and comtemplating what to do next with my life, spend more time than I've ever done in front of the TV. In fact my schedule these days almost revolves around what's on TV. There are things that I watch out of habit rather than actual enjoyment, such as Neighbours and entertainment shows such as The X Factor and the latest series of Heroes. I ended up watching the X Factor by wanting to see if I was any good at spotting talent. I spotted the talent of Alexandra Burke in the group stage with her rendition of 'The First Time Ever I Saw Your Face", which moved me and I thought she'd win it on that performance. She was the eventual winner and rightly so, even though she was proper ditzy.
After a brief hiatus of talent shows, along came American Idol and I was hit by the outstanding talent of Adam Lambert. The seeds of this blog were planted and gradually, I was hooked and fiercely reeled into the phenomenon that is Adam Lambert.