Thursday, 16 April 2009

Introducing the Author

I have never been a fan of reality TV and wouldn't consider myself a fan of TV talent shows. In fact, I would accuse myself of being a bit of a snob when it comes to music and have rarely cared for the commercial drivel that's in the pop charts, which seem to be a parade of uninspiring ballads, teenybopper acts and mediocre bands. It's all been done before and much better. As far as I'm concerned, there's been little or no excitement in the world of pop music and nothing really original since the 80s. The 90s was all about the re-hashing, re-doing and re-mixing of the previous generations' genres and the noughties, with some exceptions, seem to be going like that as well. Of course, there have been plenty of exciting alternative movements, especially in dance, that sometimes penetrate the mainstream but there has been nothing massive. I'm sure there are plenty of people out there who would strongly disagree with me on this one though.

My life a number of years ago was London, and I spent most of my money and time going out, socialising, partying and chasing fun and excitement. I hardly ever watched TV. I used to go clubbing a lot, I loved dancing and often ended up at hip-hop, drum'n'bass, latin, blues, funk, and reggae nights. I was never a big fan of house, trance or techno. The whole social scene has changed though and I believe the era of clubbing is dead. Is it the lack of quality music to dance to? Are we just tired of the often obscene prices of going clubbing? Or is it just because my peer group and I are getting old (we've reached 30) and tired of it all? Big clubs were closing down well before the credit crunch era and people switched to going to bars instead. Now people are just staying in.

I felt that I was getting London fatigue, and so were my friends, so I decided to leave the country to do some travelling. Thinking of Samuel Johnson, I didn't want to feel tired of life. So I quit everything then upped and left by myself. It was a great experience. I was away for a year and a half but my travels were painfully cut short because of my mother's health so I had to return.

My mother is heartbreakingly slipping further away each day. I've moved back in with my parents to help out and give support. As a result, I've not gone looking for work and have hardly been out or seen my friends.  I've been in this stasis for many months now and between grief and comtemplating what to do next with my life, spend more time than I've ever done in front of the TV. In fact my schedule these days almost revolves around what's on TV. There are things that I watch out of habit rather than actual enjoyment, such as Neighbours and entertainment shows such as The X Factor and the latest series of Heroes. I ended up watching the X Factor by wanting to see if I was any good at spotting talent.  I spotted the talent of Alexandra Burke in the group stage with her rendition of 'The First Time Ever I Saw Your Face", which moved me and I thought she'd win it on that performance.  She was the eventual winner and rightly so, even though she was proper ditzy.

After a brief hiatus of talent shows, along came American Idol and I was hit by the outstanding talent of Adam Lambert. The seeds of this blog were planted and gradually, I was hooked and fiercely reeled into the phenomenon that is Adam Lambert.


  1. Because we are going back, I decided to catch up with the early stages of your obsession and your blog since I joined at week 8 - Mad World...

  2. Wow, it is the end of June and I just found your blog. What an incredible talent you have with words! Your art has allowed me to relive all of these awesome Adam moments, but on a much deeper level because of your articulate wording and your ability to capture what many of us were thinking and feeling. Thank you!

    I am also impressed with the way you captured his sexuality so beautifully. Generally speaking, whether a person is male, female, gay or straight, if you're not mesmerized by the liquid sex pouring through Adam's veins then you must be made of stone. Love this man, and love your blog!

    One more thing, Kara in my opinion partially redeemed herself from some really ridiculous comments throughout the AI8 season, when she had repeated adamgasms. I would laugh so hard, it all started at RoF and escalated to her pounding the table and screaming Yes Yes after WLL...even Simon was like Kara (get a grip on yourself)!!!??? You are the only other person I have ever seen comment on that. I love it!
    I am a new fan of your blog - Melinda from Michigan, US.

  3. AB-I had never read this entry. What a poignant time this year must have been for you. I'm glad that Adam has provided a way for you to have a great new adventure in the middle of a difficult time.

  4. Wow! You sure have been through a lot (!) but some uplifting life experiences, including the phenomenon of Adam Lambert, have probably helped you keep some sanity! I am very grateful for your well written blog and those fantastic video edits. You make me and a lot of Glamberts very happy!!! I can not wait for the single and album #2!!!

  5. Anonymous, it's been my toughest few years but I wouldn't find myself here without those circumstances. I would choose complete ignorance of Adam if it meant I could reverse those circumstances. I guess this fandom has helped to anaesthetise me, for which I am grateful. Looking forward to the next era!