Friday, 4 September 2009
I've always been a believer that if there's nothing to enjoy, there's little point in living but this was one of those pleasures that developed into a distraction that was all-consuming, blinkering me from the important things. In times of difficulty, we return to the familiar, and despite my revulsion and wanting to walk away from it once and for all, I find myself back here. Instead of escapism towards fun and excitement though, I come here to be anaesthetised. Maybe that's what this was about all along; I'd already started grieving long before I began this blog.
I feel like I'm over this obsession but have decided to finish covering the tour, probably in a reduced and mechanical capacity as I'm so far behind and feel little inspiration or desire to write. Expect a video collection for each stop and a finished video edit that I was in the middle of doing. Perhaps there'll be a few more tour videos if I get back into the flow of things and find my feet again, so let's see how things go.
Thank you all for reaching out to me with your kind support and patience through this most painful time. You have given me strength for which I am grateful.